Something changed, but some not. I hate to be closed with each other. I shut down my door against anyone around me cause I hate the feeling being deserted and being insecure. The most stupid thing is to view all the messages you've sent before without taking any actions at all. It applies to your life as well. Postponing everything behind until the last minute isn't really a good habit. I hate what I've become now--selfish, unconfident, sensitive, jealous, lazy, not farsighted ...... Like a frog in a hot spoiling water waiting to be cooked.