i picked up my negative energy recently
especially when QRL died from DEPRESSION
more and more articles begin to illustrate on this disease
almost all the symptoms quite match me
i'm really afraid one day i will be overwhelmed by this monster
i will be conquered by this beast
tearing me apart from everyone else around me
especially my family
i know how hard they will suffer if losing me
i swear to live healthy both mentally and physically
but yesterday LW was transferred to the other apartment
it really distracted me and i cannot stop thinking of my job again
am i important in this company?
am i the one being kicked out a month later?
am i doomed to be ignored or swpet away?
they took me for invisible and not essential at all
i felt insecure and deserted and unconfident once again
i still have not guts to frankly tell my parents about it
how can i tell them i am being dismissed with such an insiginificant title?
i hate that horror for real
nothing but induge myself in overeating again even not hungry at all
staying up late even my eyes already closed
it really sucks
i really hate what i have currently acheived
#fake smile
#silent words
#heavy trudge
#sleepy soul
#walking death